.Nik Hampshire.

Haha so i found a website called futureme.org that you write an e-mail to yourself, and date it for a future date of your choosing. I just got an e-mail from two years ago. It reads as follows:

Well then,

It's 2:52 AM and you have a test in Fife's class that you havn't studied for and still have to read the entire book for Heiner's Drug's and Society Class. Instead your "Stumbling" on mozilla and found this website. Way to go.

I hope your girl problem is fixed by now cuz while messing around with different girls all willy nilly has its ups, not having a relationship does kinda suck.

Oh ya, you better not still be broke as fuck either cuz i gotta tell you, this whole "no money" thing sucks too.

Hope your sleeve is finished and your still having fun in life. Snowboarding and such.

Call your Mom and Dad today and tell them you love them.

Call Anthony and Seth too. Do the same.

I'm almost 21 and still edge. Sometimes i wonder if i'm doing the right thing but i guess by the time i'll read this we'll know how that'll have turned out. Edge till death right. lets see it.

Well thats all i guess. I have to figure out when i'm going to send this now.

later,
nik

p.s. happy birthday




Broker than ever. No girlfriend (though i think i figured out atleast part of the problem) but am still loving life and those in it. STAY TRUE! NAILED TO THE X! haha Thanks 2007 Nik! Thank you everyone. :)

-Nik

Sorry i forgot you existed LJ.

Other shit going on and Twitter have kept me pacified for months, but now i need more than 140 characters.

I'm going to be 23 next week and i have little to show for it but a shit load of debt. I always figured by this age, i'd have some recognition for something. I thought i'd be on a path to getting where i want to be, but i've yet to choose my path on how to get there and so here i remain. Southern New Hampshire. trying to find my way.

Well fuck that. I've just now, decided to write out what i want and in doing so, help clarify how best to make that happen.

SO without further ado, I want...

I want to live moderately off my creativity. Well enough to support my creative hobbies.

I want to have art that someone i don't know well paid for.

I want people to know my work and name before they know me personally.

I want to have completed projects in multiple mediums for my portfolio that showcases my diverse talents.

I want to have my own business in some aspect, be it an actual business or representing myself successfully.

I want to be in a position to help friends get some attention on their projects.

I want to be positively reviewed by a source i respect.

I want to have done 2 interviews.

I want to collaborate with 10 people on projects. At least 4 of them have to be people i met in the business.

I want my picture in a magazine. A paper will suffice, but magazine is preferred.

I want to have been to California at least twice for work, or live there.

I want to have 75% of this done and still rolling by my 28th birthday.

The following are current avenues i hope to utilize in order to make the aforementioned goals happen:

+ Comic Writing
+ Script writing
+ Indie Film Making
+ Acting/Modeling
+ Media Management Business
+ Clothing Line
+ Music


Time to get mine.

Thanks,
Nik Hampshire

excuse me. number one comin thru, and i'm thru with all you screw heads now, 23 skadoo, like jordan 2 point oh, so i'm over ya heads, like dunkin donuts people go nuts freely, cuz america runs on me, three things that i'll tell ya, paper, green and money, make alotta problems for y'all, and all for one, three muskateers done, its a narcisistic free-for-all, and everybodys havin a ball, livin life just like they laughed last left in the mall,


but your all zombies out there, i'm sayin buyers beware


clearly villainy appears to me like capatalistic canabilismy, isn't that silly?

my machete sticks to me like fuckin modern day mysogony and see, that brain u think is really clean needs a labotomy i'm comin for that dome, so i can show the you all are wrong but me? when all is said and done i am the champion the martyr free to live amongst infected givin all of y'all somethin to eat. my brain for you to pick i know i know, but where the fucks the beef.

RISE

you know the dark rules everything around me, i dreamed it, i can't keep a handle on my thoughts like steam, it got too hot to touch and has gone up like smoke but don't choke as i approach and stoke the flame you claim my reach is to shy to reach the stars but i'm spittin rhymed bars to grab towards the sky and i'm comin to ya on waves up too high to be seen by your eyes so just let this heart guide your way through my words as i travel through time and reach back to a better place keep an open mind

i want to lift you to a whole new level, follow along cautiously and heed every syllable, lyrically criminal i'm intruding on your dreams but have no fear while i'm here, cause nothing's what it seems



with heavy eye lids i hit the track running countin off these z's imagination has begun and i hypnotize your eyes to realize my own intentions, i play with aspirations of cerebral destinations, contort your will to mine my desires fuels your fire, feel the blaze of this heat, feel the warmth of this pire, cuz i'm burning down your fears ashes floatin ever higher destruction is creation i'm your frankenstein's sire

breathing ever normal as i whisper in your ear, commands i beckon out, barely audible yet clear, i'm rearranging circuitry the mercury reads hott, this thermometer of logic sure shows signs to never stop, eternity it seems we wage war against the sun, the yellow bricks of wisdom drop in and weigh a ton. follow me and swallow all the dowels set in place to align you with the narrow space while you wallow in your grace.



so don't care as the nightmare's stare you down from space, mirror's point of view the glare reflecting laughin in your face disecting and directing any waking thought you taste, my words like clorophorm to put you within your place

cuz i'm saving face, i'm not building up a monster or disgrace, certainly no concotion option criminally laced

i live to brace your mind with designs aligned to be embraced, dont resist or i'll insist you choose which memories i misplace
i'm just resurrecting competence and confidence post haste, i'm just diving through subconciousness to awaken you from the base,

so rest patiently and satiably i'll provide you with the means to hastily baste with me these imaginary seems, it seems as though your ready as i steady all these dreams, lay there silent now not violent your body lies and teams with life



rise

now rise and bring
your hybrid mind to find
this is only the beginning

open up your eyes
feel the power well inside
stand up
now
define devine

OLD FRIENDS

hello darkness i want this opportunity to talk this thru, you so no no no, dont you speak cuz its my turn to pop this i know we're friends but to what ends can me and light make amends it all depends on trends of might of will to fight the strength that lends

now don't interupt cuz this relationship we gots fucked up and corrupt, you steal the wheels and cogs behind my face that seals time up,

my friend mon freir you say you care but with no spark the dark does stare thru abyss i miss myself as it stares back attacks and i lack, prepare yourself

don't turn you back that shadows dark as the unseen side of the moon and soon this revolution's solution will hit the switch and you'll lose it to prove that armstrongs land cruizer was just mind poison pollution so i grabbin this swoosh and i'll do it in reflected sunlight that loses its alluring luminous newness yet i digress

and scream yes

i hear your darkest regrets
i hear your sharpest bereft

i'm here for cathartic errest with no mothers bossom no breasts

Yet i need to be off of yer chest, thru ya ribs your heart and that vest,

the darkest celestial nest takes my breath and sleep ever west

my eyes are restlessness, the mess you left, i cleaned the rest


i need the crest of this hex, i need to be the best of the best, i need to rest so darkness blow me like i'm N E S

so again my friend i defend the end because darkness you send a trend i comprehend but you fade away and break your stay as my way strays in between night and day i'll stay if you play the role apollo pray that you lay your reins leaving the sun away for tonight just might now forever stay and i'll never ever have to gather thoughts and say . . .