Under your Breath

Message from my past!

2009-10-21T15:21:43Z

Haha so i found a website called futureme.org that you write an e-mail to yourself, and date it for a future date of your choosing. I just got an e-mail from two years ago. It reads as follows:

Well then,

It's 2:52 AM and you have a test in Fife's class that you havn't studied for and still have to read the entire book for Heiner's Drug's and Society Class. Instead your "Stumbling" on mozilla and found this website. Way to go.

I hope your girl problem is fixed by now cuz while messing around with different girls all willy nilly has its ups, not having a relationship does kinda suck.

Oh ya, you better not still be broke as fuck either cuz i gotta tell you, this whole "no money" thing sucks too.

Hope your sleeve is finished and your still having fun in life. Snowboarding and such.

Call your Mom and Dad today and tell them you love them.

Call Anthony and Seth too. Do the same.

I'm almost 21 and still edge. Sometimes i wonder if i'm doing the right thing but i guess by the time i'll read this we'll know how that'll have turned out. Edge till death right. lets see it.

Well thats all i guess. I have to figure out when i'm going to send this now.

later,
nik

p.s. happy birthday

Broker than ever. No girlfriend (though i think i figured out atleast part of the problem) but am still loving life and those in it. STAY TRUE! NAILED TO THE X! haha Thanks 2007 Nik! Thank you everyone. :)

-Nik

Get Yours!

2009-10-14T10:19:52Z

Sorry i forgot you existed LJ.

Other shit going on and Twitter have kept me pacified for months, but now i need more than 140 characters.

I'm going to be 23 next week and i have little to show for it but a shit load of debt. I always figured by this age, i'd have some recognition for something. I thought i'd be on a path to getting where i want to be, but i've yet to choose my path on how to get there and so here i remain. Southern New Hampshire. trying to find my way.

Well fuck that. I've just now, decided to write out what i want and in doing so, help clarify how best to make that happen.

SO without further ado, I want...

I want to live moderately off my creativity. Well enough to support my creative hobbies.

I want to have art that someone i don't know well paid for.

I want people to know my work and name before they know me personally.

I want to have completed projects in multiple mediums for my portfolio that showcases my diverse talents.

I want to have my own business in some aspect, be it an actual business or representing myself successfully.

I want to be in a position to help friends get some attention on their projects.

I want to be positively reviewed by a source i respect.

I want to have done 2 interviews.

I want to collaborate with 10 people on projects. At least 4 of them have to be people i met in the business.

I want my picture in a magazine. A paper will suffice, but magazine is preferred.

I want to have been to California at least twice for work, or live there.

I want to have 75% of this done and still rolling by my 28th birthday.

The following are current avenues i hope to utilize in order to make the aforementioned goals happen:

+ Comic Writing
+ Script writing
+ Indie Film Making
+ Acting/Modeling
+ Media Management Business
+ Clothing Line
+ Music

Time to get mine.

Thanks,
Nik Hampshire

lyrics

2009-07-20T22:14:11Z

excuse me. number one comin thru, and i'm thru with all you screw heads now, 23 skadoo, like jordan 2 point oh, so i'm over ya heads, like dunkin donuts people go nuts freely, cuz america runs on me, three things that i'll tell ya, paper, green and money, make alotta problems for y'all, and all for one, three muskateers done, its a narcisistic free-for-all, and everybodys havin a ball, livin life just like they laughed last left in the mall,

but your all zombies out there, i'm sayin buyers beware

clearly villainy appears to me like capatalistic canabilismy, isn't that silly?

my machete sticks to me like fuckin modern day mysogony and see, that brain u think is really clean needs a labotomy i'm comin for that dome, so i can show the you all are wrong but me? when all is said and done i am the champion the martyr free to live amongst infected givin all of y'all somethin to eat. my brain for you to pick i know i know, but where the fucks the beef.

lyrics

2009-07-12T01:59:46Z

RISE

you know the dark rules everything around me, i dreamed it, i can't keep a handle on my thoughts like steam, it got too hot to touch and has gone up like smoke but don't choke as i approach and stoke the flame you claim my reach is to shy to reach the stars but i'm spittin rhymed bars to grab towards the sky and i'm comin to ya on waves up too high to be seen by your eyes so just let this heart guide your way through my words as i travel through time and reach back to a better place keep an open mind

i want to lift you to a whole new level, follow along cautiously and heed every syllable, lyrically criminal i'm intruding on your dreams but have no fear while i'm here, cause nothing's what it seems

with heavy eye lids i hit the track running countin off these z's imagination has begun and i hypnotize your eyes to realize my own intentions, i play with aspirations of cerebral destinations, contort your will to mine my desires fuels your fire, feel the blaze of this heat, feel the warmth of this pire, cuz i'm burning down your fears ashes floatin ever higher destruction is creation i'm your frankenstein's sire

breathing ever normal as i whisper in your ear, commands i beckon out, barely audible yet clear, i'm rearranging circuitry the mercury reads hott, this thermometer of logic sure shows signs to never stop, eternity it seems we wage war against the sun, the yellow bricks of wisdom drop in and weigh a ton. follow me and swallow all the dowels set in place to align you with the narrow space while you wallow in your grace.

so don't care as the nightmare's stare you down from space, mirror's point of view the glare reflecting laughin in your face disecting and directing any waking thought you taste, my words like clorophorm to put you within your place

cuz i'm saving face, i'm not building up a monster or disgrace, certainly no concotion option criminally laced

i live to brace your mind with designs aligned to be embraced, dont resist or i'll insist you choose which memories i misplace
i'm just resurrecting competence and confidence post haste, i'm just diving through subconciousness to awaken you from the base,

so rest patiently and satiably i'll provide you with the means to hastily baste with me these imaginary seems, it seems as though your ready as i steady all these dreams, lay there silent now not violent your body lies and teams with life

rise

now rise and bring
your hybrid mind to find
this is only the beginning

open up your eyes
feel the power well inside
stand up
now
define devine

Some Lyrics

2009-07-08T04:38:04Z

OLD FRIENDS

hello darkness i want this opportunity to talk this thru, you so no no no, dont you speak cuz its my turn to pop this i know we're friends but to what ends can me and light make amends it all depends on trends of might of will to fight the strength that lends

now don't interupt cuz this relationship we gots fucked up and corrupt, you steal the wheels and cogs behind my face that seals time up,

my friend mon freir you say you care but with no spark the dark does stare thru abyss i miss myself as it stares back attacks and i lack, prepare yourself

don't turn you back that shadows dark as the unseen side of the moon and soon this revolution's solution will hit the switch and you'll lose it to prove that armstrongs land cruizer was just mind poison pollution so i grabbin this swoosh and i'll do it in reflected sunlight that loses its alluring luminous newness yet i digress

and scream yes

i hear your darkest regrets
i hear your sharpest bereft

i'm here for cathartic errest with no mothers bossom no breasts

Yet i need to be off of yer chest, thru ya ribs your heart and that vest,

the darkest celestial nest takes my breath and sleep ever west

my eyes are restlessness, the mess you left, i cleaned the rest

i need the crest of this hex, i need to be the best of the best, i need to rest so darkness blow me like i'm N E S

so again my friend i defend the end because darkness you send a trend i comprehend but you fade away and break your stay as my way strays in between night and day i'll stay if you play the role apollo pray that you lay your reins leaving the sun away for tonight just might now forever stay and i'll never ever have to gather thoughts and say . . .

life.

2009-06-28T10:34:56Z

ey all.

official update time.

So here i am. 5:30am watching the Terminal. I bought it for $1 @ Bullmoose with Ms. April Lindi & Cady Jones.

Lindi is back in New England and I couldn't be happier about it. i missed her so much and a good cuddle sesh the other night really put a smile on my face :).

i'm still stuck at hot topic. pullin down like 30 bucks a week. shits ridic. i need a job so bad. almost anything at this point will suffice. i'm dyin here. Just got hit with a $95 trip to the comic shop. $50 golfing excursion for fathers day. in the rain no less. it was very fun tho. I love my pops. he's really a great dude and i honestly have no idea where i'd be without him.

I've been gettin more into making websites and just finished making one for Ezra's new line www.ezraxavier.com

Because i've yet to find work elsewhere, i've decided to work on my own business idea making websites, handling various companies online presence and general internet social accounts for them.

I just got in from a party @ Carlton's place. him and i might get some music going. met some cool cats at his place. fun times.

I find myself liking people less and less these days honestly. I have little interest in going out most days. I've been staying in a lot partially cuz i haven't got any cash to do anything. partly because i'm too lazy to leave and honestly, i just don't feel like leaving is worth it. i just get comfortable at home. i have things i want/need to get done. I need to make moves. As much as i love seeing my friends, and i really do. anyone reading this, if we hang out, know that you mean a great deal to me. i cherish the time we spend together. I just have to much aspiration to do the same thing every night or every weekend. I have to get something. I have to get something in the works. I have to make something of myself. I feel like if i continue to fester in my own creativity, eventually something of worth must come of it. sometime i can run with. i just have too much to get done to not worry about it. Once i'm on track, i think/hope i'll be more inclined to come out more frequently. Until then, i ask for your patience friends.

Otherwise, life is good. Money problems come with the lack of a real job but finances aside, other things are decent. I can't think of much else to say right now except R.I.P. King of Pop. Michael Jackson died 2 days ago. To read more of how bummed i was and just why, keep an eye on my blog http://2fresh2death.blogspot.com over the next few days and it should be up.

Thanks for checkin up on me. Leave a message @ the beep yo.

no more loud twitter!

2009-05-07T21:35:55Z

Hey all,

So, i've noticed that my daily loudtwitters take up a fair share of the "new posts" on friends pages so i've rerouted them to the following: Nik Hampshire Tweets!

Feel free to follow there or do it real time via my actual twitter account!

This also means i will occasionally return to posting actual entries.

Thank you for your time.

-Nik

P.s. I miss april lindi.

Twitter Son!

2009-05-07T11:01:07Z

06:24 haha i was jst exposed 2 this. i kno im crazy late 2 the game but i'm sharin it for those who have missed out as i have airin.us/268 #
06:43 i have the worst memory out of anyone i kno. not so much short term important things but memories & details. i'm terrible. especially names. #
13:20 @icraig1985 dear craig brown. if posible, pls report 2 HUB @ 2:30.my shoes have come in & need to kick ur ass. death to all if its a comic! #
13:39 FINALLY! NEW SHOES! MWAAHAHAHAHA~! #
16:02 aww scrubs is gettin so sad :-/ #
16:33 i can't wait to go cliff jumping this summer! #
18:47 @timgonsalves so far, both are west coast :-/ #
18:48 @hello_anna they can include anyone they want. wade is my FAVORITE character. he's my license plate! but shitty movie is shitty movie. #
18:50 @hello_anna and its not epic at all. its silly and frivolous and makes zero sense. memory erasing bullets are not epic. they're retarded. #
20:43 @hello_anna then why when he was fired @ at the shooting range he didn't lose his memory? jimmy lange lost half his brain withou memory loss #
20:43 @hello_anna the odds that the bullets would cause memory is like 1/2492394825 and he says it so assuredly like its a proven tested action #
20:44 @hello_anna NONSENSE! lol transformers 2 will be wicked legit tho! #
21:04 hahaha i just went to ask.com and typed "can" only to find the first 7 recommended questions are about pregnancy lol #
22:16 @hello_anna lol no they only needed 2B adamatium 2 break in2 his metal skul. wen he got shot B4, he had a reg skul. reg bulets woulda workd. #
22:44 Last radio show ever! #
23:48 Feeeyaaayoooo @bmash ! #
00:05 Skycamefalling on the radio?!? Sooo dope! I love them! #
00:53 Bulletin boarding :-/ #
01:58 @PaulieCooks Yo Carnage has been the best villain for spidey since i was a kid! so brutal! mathew lillard would be PERFECT for the role! #
02:38 @bmash haha its so frustrating trying to keep within the 140 character parameter!!! #
03:46 i made an unexpected spare of the moment speech today @ my final meetin & it was a rly great feelin. I've been feelin good off it all night. #
05:52 @afuckingwarrior whats good kid? #